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Music o' The Entry: Shadow Hearts Original Soundtracks plus1
Yes, that's seriously the title of the thing. Don't worry, I don't get it either. As for my opinion on this OSV...I haven't even listened to the second disc yet (and barely skimmed over the first, I haven't had any time to listen to it with any sense of effectiveness), so I won't be spewing out my thoughts quite yet. Indeed, I do occasionally think before I act/speak, contrary to popular belief. Suffice to say that the initial reaction is positive and I'm quite pleased thus far with my purchase. Lots of fun industrial noises and reminds me vaguely of Ayashi no Ceres music upon occasion.
Things at school have taken a turn for the vaguely positive, at least in the sense of the future. Don't get me wrong, it was never ever bad, but if you recall I've been somewhat despondent about my future as all my gleefully knit plans unravelled into some sort of oblivion, having no major and all. Anyways, the story is my mother's been on my back to submit in my form for the internal scholarships that my university offers. I told it stank to me of an unholy waste of time, as I have neither the need to obtain one, the grades, or the extracurriculars. To the point where if someone offered me a scholarship I'd think they're bloody stupid and would be terribly tempted to tell them to give it to someone more worthy. I grudgingly agreed to do the flaming thing, but one of the requirements is that I compose a "personal statement", stating my major, goals, why I deserve the scholarship, etc. This would basically read like "I have no major, all goals have been shot down and are currently dead and rotting within the foulest recesses of hell, and I deserve a scholarship because my mom said so." Indeed, large problem for Sho. One of the other req's for this was a letter of recommendation, so I had my geography professor from last quarter compose it. On Thursday I went to pick it up, and I ended up talking to her about all sorts of stuff, totally skipping my Descriptive Astronomy class for like the second or third time this week. I thought things through during the day and in the afternoon I went to the student affairs hall and declared my first major, geography. No, I have not completely lost it, stop looking at me like that. I was thinking of the things I'd like to do within my lifetime and I noticed a common thread-basically, they could all be applied to a geography major. Hence, I am one now. Plus it's like a 45-credit major, which means unless something seriously weird happens, I'll have a BA in less than two years. Which also means that it will be very easy for me to double-major if I like. Still, I'm fine right now, no need to get ahead of myself. I'm quite excited by this: I finally feel like I have some direction after floating needlessly, and I think I'm going to enjoy this. There's less than 40 people in the entire school (the student population is 8,600) with a geography major, and all us plus the few anthropology majors are lumped together in a mass of glee. How glad I am. So yeah, I officially declared now, and it feels good. Plus my advisor is my geography professor, who is strikingly similar to myself. Not in a Mattish way, Matt & I have very very similar interests in nearly all aspects; however, we are very different personalitywise whereas my professor and I share political views, personality traits, etc...yes, this year shall be dug.
In Japanese class Thursday, something happened that made me feel kinda happy and sad simultaneously. In conversation class, this discussions were on our thoughts on marriage, how many children we'd like to have, if we'd like to get married period, etc...all groups have to present on this and share our thoughts (in Japanese, naturally). In one group, girl whom I know and am friendly with (she's a j-rock/visual kei fan who also happens to be a fabulous painter, spiffy artsy-type) who was in the class last quarter was the only dissenter in a group that all wanted to be married. Naturally, sensei was curious and asked her about it...she got rather tense and vague before finally saying "dekinai" (not possible), and explaining that her significant other is female as well. I was a bit taken back, not because I didn't know she was not heterosexual (well, I didn't know) but because she actually had the guts to say that in front of the class. The beautiful thing was that no one reacted in horror, fear, or loathing-if they had, I would've likely reacted in an extremely unpleasant fashion. She seemed very uncomfortable with the entire situation though, as is expected. I desperately wanted to say something, because I felt scared for her to say and simultaneously joyous-because now I'm not the only one. I don't know if she's lesbian or bi, but I suspect bi because she loves pretty Japanese boys as much as I do. I wanted to say something to let her know that she's not only, that I'm not quite straight as well so later when one girl was saying how she didn't want to get married, she just wanted a harem of men in her basement, I chipped in something about adding in a few girls and I'd be all good. I didn't look at the girl who had spoken earlier, but I know she very quickly looked at me, probably to see if I was joking, and noticed that I was just smiling. Unfortunately didn't get the chance to speak to her, but I will next week. Yes, I no longer feel so alone, and perhaps it'll make her feel a bit better.
Oh, had the surreal event of the week occur. The other day I received an e-mail from Tomo, the guy from Osaka who used to ride the bus to school with me last quarter every day. However, he wrote it in English AND Japanese and decided to not go so easy with the Japanese portion, full of kanji I couldn't read. So I asked Matt if he'd help me and he readily agreed. When we were up in the computer lab the other day, I pulled it up for him and he read it...and started laughing. From the letter and what I could understand I garnered that he wanted help with his English and would like to get together with me if I had the time...when I asked Matt what he was laughing about, he said that had just asked me to go to a movie with him. Uh, come again? I think, desperately hope that this is in an entirely platonic manner, as he's 30, married, has a child, etc...but so our nefarious plot is for me to go on a deeto (Tomo's words) with Tomo-san while taking my boyfriend and some other folk with me. Indeed, my date and my boyfriend shall be two different people. But my life around here isn't strange, honestly. Oy. You'd think Matt would be pissed, but he seems wildly amused by all this...how odd.
Ah well, I'd love to write more, but aforementioned boyfriend (not date) will be arriving at my home quite soon, so need to go. Anyways, hopefully more later, going up to the mountains tomorrow...I wish everyone well, mata ne.
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