Arubaito ga aru? Apparently.
01.12.21
E11:06
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Music o' The Entry: "Lhasa", La'cryma Christi
Once again I rise from the ashes. Well, not exactly, that implicates that something wildly traumatic has occurred when in fact nothing of the sort has. Still, I enjoy making random allusions to creatures and folk of mythology, so I s'pose you'll just be having to live with it, won't you.
Interesting news was passed onto me last night, children: arubaito ga arimasu. In English, Sho's got a job. Yes, this was slightly unexpected. Actually, I'm very glad it happened when it did, because this gives me the pleasure of cancelling the interview I was to have at Wendy's this afternoon, seeing as I'll be AT work when it occurs. No, I did not want to work at Wendy's. But if I'm not working there, where AM I working? The Flaming Wok, a Chinese food place in the mall. I dunno how this is going to work out, I've never before worked in food (if you'll recall, I've only had 2 other jobs previously, both of them quite brief and temporary: working at okaasan's English school and working at the photo studio from October to November), so I hope I do well...indeed, this is rather sudden, I discovered I had a job at Bak-chan's home last night around 10:30. Ah well, I DID say I could work from the 17th on, so I suppose this is my own bloody fault...I just wasn't expecting to you know, actually be *hired*, this sort of thing doesn't happen with me so often. So, if things go well for the first few days and I'm confident that I'm not going to be dropped like a hot potato, then hair dying will ensue (it's doing that distinctly odd tri-colour thing again. Not that it doesn't look moderately odd now, being quite obviously red on top and blackish on bottom [actually, the black is just very dark red. Remember kiddies, if you dye your hair black, it AIN'T coming out, regardless of the attested permanency level of the dye in question.]). I suppose I do look vaguely trashy right now...but, it could be worse, I could have dyed it blonde (one action you can never fear from I) and my brown roots could quite blatantly be poking out. So yes, that's the big news of the day, I've a job once again. Now, as for my thoughts on this...I'm happy. I think. Sort of. Certainly, I'm shocked I do have a job, and immensely pleased that my search is over (there is little I despise more in this world than job hunting, I find it humiliating somehow)...but any and all time I was going to have with Matt, or the rest of my social life for that matter, has effectively disappeared. This wouldn't be such an issue if the school wasn't 40 minutes from my house and taking public transportation didn't take over an hour...ah well, I suppose there are some benefits to being 17, they can't work me over 20 hours a week until the 18th of January...
As some of you may have expected (provided there's anyone beyond the level of apathy reading this), the biggest reason why I haven't been writing IS Matt. Like I've mentioned before, the only way to communicate with each other at the moment is via chat programs (we favour MSN Messenger); we don't have any phone cards, I can't find my bastard of one, and long distance is expensive. Which sucks in a major fashion since we're both rather broke. However, he may be coming back for New Year's, which makes me a very happy Sho. But otherwise, things are going well, we get to "see" each other for a couple hours a day, which makes us mutually happy. So why am I becoming more insecure and inadequate about being an uncrappy girlfriend, particularly one with a distinctly weird past that's still kicking her butt? No, I'm not over Soba; very little has changed in that realm thus far. But at least now I have a reason to try to be. I think I may have pinpointed it: I never had a reason to be, so I could just continue on with my recognized state of hopelessness, which I'm oddly comfortable with. And yes, to the critics: I'm aware we don't have a relationship, I'm aware that we never did and never will. I assure you, I am grossly and painfully aware of every facet relating to the entire "thing" concerning Soba, I'm not looking at this through rose-tinted glasses. Does it make me psychotic? Not in the least. Unusual, more than likely, but this is something I can handle. I may be emotionally unstable, but I don't make up stuff in my head, particularly stuff wildly unfounded. But it does take a while for something that's been deeply carved into your psyche and incorporated into your bloody thought processes to leave; things of that magnitude simply do not "go away", they can't be tossed aside like some such refuse on the street corner. More like just waiting for wounds to heal, which will always result in scars. Ha, what an ironic metaphor, given the subject.
But anyways, on to other news: I'm glad, gamemusic.com shipped my Square Vocal Collections CD without telling me. Well, I'm not glad that they didn't tell me, but I was concerned that they hadn't shipped it period, and we'd have a repeat of the whole Bara no Seidou thing last year (I think it came it early January, if I'm not mistaken). But it's here now, painstakingly wrapped by yours truly, sitting cheerfully 'neath the traditional holiday fire hazard. So, expect a brief review on it after Monday. Yes, Monday-my family opens all of our gifts on the 24th, and thing we're going to go hang out with extended family in the mountains on the 25th. I'm amazed how long it took me to notice that absolutely none of the Christmas mythology centering on Santa Claus's much-lauded Christmas Eve visit made absolutely no sense, considering the circumstances of my family (and my extended family at that time, when we didn't live freakishly far away)...yeah, we'd sing songs about Santa coming, and the open presents immediately after. Ooookay. But I have mentioned I'm dense before, so it's okay. The addition of the Vocal Collections makes my collection of known CD's I'm receiving look like Pierrot's PRIVATE ENEMY album, The Yellow Monkey's 1996-2000 The Golden Years album, L'Arc~en~Ciel's Clicked Best Singles 13 (yup, the American release. Rock.), Love Psychedelico's "The Greatest Hits" from the lovely Taiwan-bound Yuri, and of course, the aforementioned CD. I was surprised at how slim the case is, it feels more like a maxi single instead of the 12 track thing it is...at least I know I'll like 3 of the songs ("Stars of Tears" & "Small Two of Pieces", both from Xenogears, and the almighty yet subtle "Radical Dreamers" from Chrono Cross. I do like "Melodies of Life", but I haven't heard it so many times).
Ah well. I'd like to write more, but I have stuff to do before the momentous first day at work, so perhaps more later with how it actually went. Strange, I don't know how long I'm working today...I hope I don't screw up. Take care minna.
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